25th July 1962

My Amma turns 55 today and the more she ages, the more worried we get. It gets even more worse when you have lost a parent. I never thought I would feel this. Everyone would feel in such way at one point but I never expected it to be now. Death has become a sensitive issue for me, personally.  But we as humans only will realise it once it's too late, once they are gone from our lives. When we feel the loss and pain of a person so close to us and that's when we would value the living ones more because we can't bear to lose them too. It will break us in a most unimaginable way. Even though I am broken, I am strong and I am strong because of my Amma. At a young age we had to go through a broken family and now, the loss of my Appa where none of us have recovered from it yet, but if we have turned out well then the entire credit goes to my Amma. This woman raised us to be independent, responsible, and a strong individual. She's the only reason why I'm still here and we are the only reason why she's still here fighting for us. As a mother, you wanna see your kids succeed and all parents would want the same too and so does my Amma but other than that, she so badly wants her kids to be happy, to not live her life, and that her kids deserve nothing but the best. She's a wonder woman. She goes to work, she does the chores, she cooks for us, she's there for us and she never stops praying no matter how many times she has had a hard time. She never gave up on God and God have never let her down. When someone says and do bad things to us, all she has to say is that just let them be and at one point they will get it back too. You just do you and that's what makes my Amma the greatest human being ever. I know how many people who looked down at her, but know this, she is a better person than you will ever be and you will never find a woman as remarkable as her. My Appa did love her but only if he realised that she was more than enough for him. I hate the idea of her working too but my Appa left us in such situation and for me to support and keep her happy, I have to succeed first and Amma, don't worry, I definitely will and I promise you that no matter how difficult it gets, I will make you and Appa proud. Your daughters will never let you down. I am so thankful and blessed that we still have you with us and I pray that you will live a longer life filled with only happiness because Amma, you deserve everything good in this world. Thank you for all the sacrifices you are still making for us and I'm sorry for all the times I have hurt you in every way possible. I just need you to know that I didn't mean any of that. You can never take Appa's place but ever since I was small, you are both my Amma and Appa. I love you, Amma and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

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